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Makai Mathis
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
United States
Current Residence: Don't worry about it
Favorite genre of music: Hip Hop
Favorite style of art: Sonic or Anime/Manga Style
Operating System: Windows XP
Wallpaper of choice: Depends on my mood
Favorite cartoon character: Knuckles, Sonic, Tails, Blaze, Son Goku, Son Gohan, Yoruichi Shihōin, Ryu, Ken Masters, Naruto Uzumaki, Okami Amaterasu, Sora, Riku, Kat, Katsuya Jonouchi, Crow Hogan, Yusuke Urameshi, Yoko Kurama.
Personal Quote: To see what is truly there, you must look beyond your desires
  • Mood: Shitty
  • Listening to: Music
  • Reading: My own works
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Water
Alright, lately I've been doing my best to get back into my stories that I've started. However, I've found myself unable to really continue anything important as of late and I think its because, as pitiful as this may sound, I'm pretty much bored and lonely. Before, when I was a teenager I loved being alone because it gave me time to actually think and put my thoughts down to paper. But as I got older and actually started sharing my ideas, I found a certain joy out of hearing the opinions of others, even if they were negative sometimes as it gave me a reason to improve and a goal to shoot for. Now, most of the people I used to talk to, I don't hear from anymore and the ones that do speak often times give me simple quick responses, showing they don't really desire a conversation anymore. Sadly, most of my friends of course in the real world are all either married now or have kids and for some reason, typically only want to spend time with other married people or parents, even if I hold no qualms about it, if I'm friends with both spouses or would actually prefer them bringing their child/children along not to mention, most of the people I call my friends aren't the types I can just sit down and just have conversations about my work with, trust me, I've tried. And actually, that's the worst reason now as since I have little to no inspiration, no one to bounces ideas off of or just speak to about my stories, it feels more like an obligation and a chore instead of something fun and exciting they way it used to and it totally sucks. I dunno its odd knowing that the thing I cherished so much over a decade ago has now pretty much become my wall and it feels like the older I get, the more I lose touch with the things I enjoy and the people I used to enjoy speaking to and being around which makes it harder for me to just want to share my mind, thoughts and stories with the world, even if I already have everything planned out in my head. Right now I am trying my best to take the time to finish the countless projects I've started already but I just hope the day doesn't come where I just give up and pack it in.

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firenamedBob Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2016
Happy New Year Makai ^^
Rudolphtheehcidna Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy New Year ^_^
firenamedBob Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2016
hows you? :)
Rudolphtheehcidna Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Doing ok. Working on more pages. How about you?
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firenamedBob Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2015… here we are. the stage is set. :)
Rudolphtheehcidna Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Looks good bro.
firenamedBob Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2015
thanks :) the next part is going to be the last one
firenamedBob Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2015
Hi Makai
Rudolphtheehcidna Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
What's up?
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